i'm getting help, but i'm still depressed. and yes, i know i am, cuz i looked up the symptoms and i have more than 5 of the first set and 4 of 5 in the kids set. so...somethings up with me. which sucks.
anyways. here's a loooooong poem i wrote:
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living in this scary life
being pushed down to the ground
being kicked around
being hurt and scarred
never knowing what is right
not knowing what is wrong
hurting inside
bleeding outside
hating all that is there
precious moments
turn to dust
beneath my shining eyes
that don’t cry tears
or hope or love
not crying at all
where is my life
where has it gone
i do not know
anymore
i’m falling into a hole
digging my grave deeper
not knowing when
or how
its going to happen
i’m dying hopelessly
never knowing
what is going on around me
who to trust
who to love
who to turn to
where do i go
there’s no where left
there’s no where to run
no where to hide
so what do i do
i can’t just give up
and i can’t keep going
what else is there to do
but suffer
suffering in this world
all alone
and not wondering
what will happen tomorrow
i’ll just let it happen
there’s no stopping fate
i lived my life
as happy as i could
until it fell apart
my world is collapsing
i’m losing it all
i’m losing my faith in everything
i’ve lost my closest friends
nothing’s right anymore
nothing was ever right before
a war has started
a battle begun
and i can’t fight
when i’m in too much pain
i can’t fight
when i have nothing to fight with
how can i win
when there’s no reason to
there’s no reason to fight
so i just give in
i just give up
i surrender
give in to the pain
that surrounds me
~~Brittany J. T.
Angel
Colimba
@->-- Angel --<-@
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4 comments:
aww, brit, don't be depressed. it sucks to see u like this. i know it is hard to feel happy when all you want to do is lie down and cry, so just do that. Lie down and cry, but remember this: mushoulder is always open for you.
eh...joey...no offence but that was a little too much...Brittany...don't LIE DOWN and cry...just cry, whether it be on a friend's shoulder or with ur parents...even at school don't be afraid to, ur getting happier i can tell even if its little by little. just remember what we talked about last night k ;) and remember i said u CAN cry when u come over today and we don't have to watch the movie if u don't want.
ill always be here for u k? and since u said to criticize ur poem...well i will...it was really good and heart felt. it gives the reader the idea of a past and somewhat present life. but in a way its bad and i think u no what i mean.
yea, i know what u mean by bad like sad =[ whaaa get the fuck over it i am mad and sad and...idk...
anyways, sorry about that and thanks a lot!!
i know joey ur there 4 me 2 and i know u r 2 robby. kk. i'll talk next time i need 2 and cry as well.
i ment as a brother. we are as close as siblings, and i hate to see my siblings suffer. brit, to feel happy, you need to let go of everything that makes you sad and depressed, even tho it will be painful. i did last year.
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