Why?

why can't I just stand up for myself?! I am such a loser!! AAAHHH! someone shoot me now! okay, never mind, don't.
I am sad.
I think I finally believe Robby and I think I should give him a second chance...But he's gonna go out with Caila. I tried to worn him that she's a total $lut but he doen't care because she's "liked him for 4 years" but she goes out with one guy for a day, breaks up w/ them, goes out w/ someone 4 another day, breaks up, goes out with the first one for two hours, breaks up...ya get it? She's one of THOSE girls. So if he goes out with her, I will be full on depressed! (Which sucks, it's happened before.)
*sigh* maybe I'll write a poem...

UNTITLED FOR NOW
I’ve done some things
That I’m not proud of.
I’ve done some things
I wish they were a dream.
The world is wrong,
It’s all, all WRONG!!
I want to turn it around
Till it starts all over again.
So many things,
I wish could change.
I’ve done some stupid things.
You would know this,
But I’m sorry,
And I want to try again.
So help me through
The hardest times,
But for now,
Just be my friend.
And later on,
My guardian.
To help me through
The good and bad.
I love you so
And miss you more
Thinking of us makes me cry.
So please come back
You’ve been gone too long
And don’t think about HER!
She is nothing but
A distraction
A liar
A fake!
She doen’t love you
You don’t know she does.
But you know that I DO.
So please some back to me
And do not stray to her.
So think about what I have said
And don’t believe what
People say to you; It’s not true!
I honestly miss you, lots and lots.
Please don’t hate me anymore.
I am begging you
To not hate me.
Please come back.

There. Not that depressing. Actually, it's just...my feelings. So HA! Not emo! *evil laughter*sigh* yeah...I'm done being a spaz. Not really. I'm always a spaz. But like, no one says that anymore. Cept me! Cuz I'm WEIRD!!! Whooooooooooo! *pokes anyone near by or reading this* hehe bored. BYE!!!

~~Angel