life sucks.
No I will not wait for you. Read post below for more information.
Have a good life for me cause mine sucks!
~~Angel [still emo depressed]
Monday, March 31, 2008
*SIGH*
Angel is emo depressed and angry at the world.
Last night I thought about doing it again...but I didn't. Because of my Nana. I wouldn't want her to see me the way I am. It hurts ME to see me the way I am. I am soooooooo angry at soooooo many things. Ugh!
Okay, here's what I don't get: Robby said he still loves me. But he likes Cayla and wants to "try to go out with her." But he also said, and I quote, "It'll only last a couple days." SO WHY THE F*CK ARE YOU DATING HER????????!!!!!! wow! People are so dumb! Oh, and last night, he was like, "Will you wait for me?" Ummmm, NO! I mean, sure, if I KNOW things aren't going to work out with them, but I mean, seriously! If she's supposedly liked him for four years, Its obvious their relatoinship won't only last "a few days" it'll last a lot loonger, so no, I won't. But just so you know, I still love him, but I am NOT going to sit around all emo and sh!t waiting for them to break up! NO! I will not allow that! I am going to be positive and happy from tomorrow on. Yes, I said tomorrow. I just want to day to end and never come back. So I am going to be negative today, sorry. but I will be better. I won't try to do anything I swear! So, have a great life with Cayla, Robby!
ILY to mah BFF's!!
~~Angel [emo depressed but working on getting HAPPY! =]]
.:Smile:. The world hasn't been blown up by yours truly...yet.
Last night I thought about doing it again...but I didn't. Because of my Nana. I wouldn't want her to see me the way I am. It hurts ME to see me the way I am. I am soooooooo angry at soooooo many things. Ugh!
Okay, here's what I don't get: Robby said he still loves me. But he likes Cayla and wants to "try to go out with her." But he also said, and I quote, "It'll only last a couple days." SO WHY THE F*CK ARE YOU DATING HER????????!!!!!! wow! People are so dumb! Oh, and last night, he was like, "Will you wait for me?" Ummmm, NO! I mean, sure, if I KNOW things aren't going to work out with them, but I mean, seriously! If she's supposedly liked him for four years, Its obvious their relatoinship won't only last "a few days" it'll last a lot loonger, so no, I won't. But just so you know, I still love him, but I am NOT going to sit around all emo and sh!t waiting for them to break up! NO! I will not allow that! I am going to be positive and happy from tomorrow on. Yes, I said tomorrow. I just want to day to end and never come back. So I am going to be negative today, sorry. but I will be better. I won't try to do anything I swear! So, have a great life with Cayla, Robby!
ILY to mah BFF's!!
~~Angel [emo depressed but working on getting HAPPY! =]]
.:Smile:. The world hasn't been blown up by yours truly...yet.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Why?
why can't I just stand up for myself?! I am such a loser!! AAAHHH! someone shoot me now! okay, never mind, don't.
I am sad.
I think I finally believe Robby and I think I should give him a second chance...But he's gonna go out with Caila. I tried to worn him that she's a total $lut but he doen't care because she's "liked him for 4 years" but she goes out with one guy for a day, breaks up w/ them, goes out w/ someone 4 another day, breaks up, goes out with the first one for two hours, breaks up...ya get it? She's one of THOSE girls. So if he goes out with her, I will be full on depressed! (Which sucks, it's happened before.)
*sigh* maybe I'll write a poem...
UNTITLED FOR NOW
I’ve done some things
That I’m not proud of.
I’ve done some things
I wish they were a dream.
The world is wrong,
It’s all, all WRONG!!
I want to turn it around
Till it starts all over again.
So many things,
I wish could change.
I’ve done some stupid things.
You would know this,
But I’m sorry,
And I want to try again.
So help me through
The hardest times,
But for now,
Just be my friend.
And later on,
My guardian.
To help me through
The good and bad.
I love you so
And miss you more
Thinking of us makes me cry.
So please come back
You’ve been gone too long
And don’t think about HER!
She is nothing but
A distraction
A liar
A fake!
She doen’t love you
You don’t know she does.
But you know that I DO.
So please some back to me
And do not stray to her.
So think about what I have said
And don’t believe what
People say to you; It’s not true!
I honestly miss you, lots and lots.
Please don’t hate me anymore.
I am begging you
To not hate me.
Please come back.
There. Not that depressing. Actually, it's just...my feelings. So HA! Not emo! *evil laughter*sigh* yeah...I'm done being a spaz. Not really. I'm always a spaz. But like, no one says that anymore. Cept me! Cuz I'm WEIRD!!! Whooooooooooo! *pokes anyone near by or reading this* hehe bored. BYE!!!
~~Angel
I am sad.
I think I finally believe Robby and I think I should give him a second chance...But he's gonna go out with Caila. I tried to worn him that she's a total $lut but he doen't care because she's "liked him for 4 years" but she goes out with one guy for a day, breaks up w/ them, goes out w/ someone 4 another day, breaks up, goes out with the first one for two hours, breaks up...ya get it? She's one of THOSE girls. So if he goes out with her, I will be full on depressed! (Which sucks, it's happened before.)
*sigh* maybe I'll write a poem...
UNTITLED FOR NOW
I’ve done some things
That I’m not proud of.
I’ve done some things
I wish they were a dream.
The world is wrong,
It’s all, all WRONG!!
I want to turn it around
Till it starts all over again.
So many things,
I wish could change.
I’ve done some stupid things.
You would know this,
But I’m sorry,
And I want to try again.
So help me through
The hardest times,
But for now,
Just be my friend.
And later on,
My guardian.
To help me through
The good and bad.
I love you so
And miss you more
Thinking of us makes me cry.
So please come back
You’ve been gone too long
And don’t think about HER!
She is nothing but
A distraction
A liar
A fake!
She doen’t love you
You don’t know she does.
But you know that I DO.
So please some back to me
And do not stray to her.
So think about what I have said
And don’t believe what
People say to you; It’s not true!
I honestly miss you, lots and lots.
Please don’t hate me anymore.
I am begging you
To not hate me.
Please come back.
There. Not that depressing. Actually, it's just...my feelings. So HA! Not emo! *evil laughter*sigh* yeah...I'm done being a spaz. Not really. I'm always a spaz. But like, no one says that anymore. Cept me! Cuz I'm WEIRD!!! Whooooooooooo! *pokes anyone near by or reading this* hehe bored. BYE!!!
~~Angel
Thursday, March 27, 2008
I regret to say this...
Please, don't get mad at me!!! I'm going to tell all of you something I truly regret. I did it again last night. I cut. And it WASN'T because of you all know who! It was because of all the stupid things I've done. Here's the 5 most stupidest things I've ever done in no particular order (Except for the first one):
1. Let my parents yell at my brother the way they do and treat him like sh!t!!!! They treat him like he should know what he's doing is wrong when he doesn't know its wrong.
2. Ask Nate out
3. Didn't stand up for myself against him.
4. Break up with Robby and let this mess happen.
5. For cutting the first time and again last night.
I'm sorry to all my friends who had to read that but I HAD to get it out!!! I'm soooooooo soooooooo sorry but I won't do it again I promise!!!!!!
I cried last night after I cut though. I was thinking about my Nana and how she's in Heaven looking down at me and seeing me cutting myself and hurting myself. I feel so horrible and I wish I hadn't done it. So I started crying after I did it because I thought of her looking down at me hurting inside and out. I'm sorry Nana, I wish I could take it back, but i knopw I can't. I love you and miss you.
I MISS YOU, ANNE LOUISE MOOERS: MARCH 3RD, 2008. YOUR MEMORY LIVES WITH ME!!!!!
Try to .:Smile:. The world is still round and it hasn't exploded yet.
~~Angel [Strangly happy after what happened to me last night/kinda depressed]
1. Let my parents yell at my brother the way they do and treat him like sh!t!!!! They treat him like he should know what he's doing is wrong when he doesn't know its wrong.
2. Ask Nate out
3. Didn't stand up for myself against him.
4. Break up with Robby and let this mess happen.
5. For cutting the first time and again last night.
I'm sorry to all my friends who had to read that but I HAD to get it out!!! I'm soooooooo soooooooo sorry but I won't do it again I promise!!!!!!
I cried last night after I cut though. I was thinking about my Nana and how she's in Heaven looking down at me and seeing me cutting myself and hurting myself. I feel so horrible and I wish I hadn't done it. So I started crying after I did it because I thought of her looking down at me hurting inside and out. I'm sorry Nana, I wish I could take it back, but i knopw I can't. I love you and miss you.
I MISS YOU, ANNE LOUISE MOOERS: MARCH 3RD, 2008. YOUR MEMORY LIVES WITH ME!!!!!
Try to .:Smile:. The world is still round and it hasn't exploded yet.
~~Angel [Strangly happy after what happened to me last night/kinda depressed]
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
i don't care
ya know what? I don't care if I'm "invisible" to Nate anymore. I asked him out, he was being and @$$ about it. (Yeah, I don't like to swear much) But anyway, he's so mean. I'll let you know if I flip out at him.
He's avoiding me when he could've just said No. Instead he humiliated me and made fun of me. Here's what I'm gonna tell him:
Thanks for avoiding me all day so far. You know, you could've just said no instead of humiliating me. Besides, I wouldn't want to go out with a jerk (or @$$ idk yet) like you.
So, that being done and over with, I've been thinking...not too hard though. Well, umm...maybe I shoudn't say that now. Yeah...Well,
~~Angel [wants to kill Nate/angry]
He's avoiding me when he could've just said No. Instead he humiliated me and made fun of me. Here's what I'm gonna tell him:
Thanks for avoiding me all day so far. You know, you could've just said no instead of humiliating me. Besides, I wouldn't want to go out with a jerk (or @$$ idk yet) like you.
So, that being done and over with, I've been thinking...not too hard though. Well, umm...maybe I shoudn't say that now. Yeah...Well,
~~Angel [wants to kill Nate/angry]
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
poem by ari
I HAD to post this, Ari!!! Just HAD to!!!!!!
God, It Hurts
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I Know'
I said 'God I cry alot'
And God said 'That's why I gave you tears'
I said 'God I get so depressed'
And God said 'That why I gave you sunshine'
I said god I feel Alone'
And god said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'
I said 'god my loved one is dead'
And God said'I watched mine nailed to the cross'
I said God 'Where are they? '
And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light.
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I know'
By ARI!!
OMG Ari, you rock!!
~~Angel
God, It Hurts
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I Know'
I said 'God I cry alot'
And God said 'That's why I gave you tears'
I said 'God I get so depressed'
And God said 'That why I gave you sunshine'
I said god I feel Alone'
And god said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'
I said 'god my loved one is dead'
And God said'I watched mine nailed to the cross'
I said God 'Where are they? '
And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light.
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I know'
By ARI!!
OMG Ari, you rock!!
~~Angel
Poem time!
There's two:
Invivsible
I sit here and wonder
Do you even know me
Or if I even exsist?
I wanted to tell you
That I see the way you walk
Down the hall with your friends
And I saw the way you looked
And smiled at her.
(Tag line) But will you ever see me?
(chrous)
Or am I just another girl
Who sits in class so quietly?
Will you ever see that you're the one I see?
Or am I just
Invivisble?
I don't know if you can choose
Who you want to see
Or who you want to ignore.
Could you at least tell me
If I am visible to you?
(Chorus)
You don't even know
That you're the one I think about
Day and night.
It might seem a little strange
That I even know your name
When you don't even know me.
As I'm walking down the hall
And I happen to look up
And I see your face through the crowd.
(Tag line)
(chorus)
You'll never see me.
I wish that you could hear me!
Or at least knew I exsist!
But maybe that's too much to ask.
So maybe I should stay
Invisible...
As I watch you walk down the hall
And I see you with that girl
I'll just walk by without a glance
From you.
~~Angel
Alone (In This Strange Hell)
I am so alone!
Someone save me!
I have no one!
No one loves me!
My parents argue!
Do they even care?
My brother's only two!
they act as if he knows
What he does is wrong!
But he doesn't!
And my parents yell!
They yell and scream
At the poor little boy!
Why must they do it?
Why not me instead?
I can handle it all
But my baby brother can't!
Why won't they stop?
It's torturing me!
Please stop! Please!
Don't you understand?
You make me feel
Alone.
Alone beyond belief.
You'd NEVER get it.
You CAN'T help me.
So stop what you're doing. Now!
You make me so ALONE!!!
~~Angel
~~Angel [is depressed] =[[[[
Invivsible
I sit here and wonder
Do you even know me
Or if I even exsist?
I wanted to tell you
That I see the way you walk
Down the hall with your friends
And I saw the way you looked
And smiled at her.
(Tag line) But will you ever see me?
(chrous)
Or am I just another girl
Who sits in class so quietly?
Will you ever see that you're the one I see?
Or am I just
Invivisble?
I don't know if you can choose
Who you want to see
Or who you want to ignore.
Could you at least tell me
If I am visible to you?
(Chorus)
You don't even know
That you're the one I think about
Day and night.
It might seem a little strange
That I even know your name
When you don't even know me.
As I'm walking down the hall
And I happen to look up
And I see your face through the crowd.
(Tag line)
(chorus)
You'll never see me.
I wish that you could hear me!
Or at least knew I exsist!
But maybe that's too much to ask.
So maybe I should stay
Invisible...
As I watch you walk down the hall
And I see you with that girl
I'll just walk by without a glance
From you.
~~Angel
Alone (In This Strange Hell)
I am so alone!
Someone save me!
I have no one!
No one loves me!
My parents argue!
Do they even care?
My brother's only two!
they act as if he knows
What he does is wrong!
But he doesn't!
And my parents yell!
They yell and scream
At the poor little boy!
Why must they do it?
Why not me instead?
I can handle it all
But my baby brother can't!
Why won't they stop?
It's torturing me!
Please stop! Please!
Don't you understand?
You make me feel
Alone.
Alone beyond belief.
You'd NEVER get it.
You CAN'T help me.
So stop what you're doing. Now!
You make me so ALONE!!!
~~Angel
~~Angel [is depressed] =[[[[
Monday, March 24, 2008
KAILA I REALLY HATE YOU
I wish I didn't give you that to give to Sk8er Boy. Now...idk but...I regret it. I should have just asked him out. So, I hate me too.
On the other hand...I saw Horton Hears a Who! on Saturday!! It was uber-cyute! LOL. I went with Max, Nudge, Des, Chappy, and Jason...I think I got em all. OOHH then we went to Dairy Queen and got ICE CREAM!! Yumm! =] I was happy.
Yesterday was Easter! Candyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! =]]]]]]]]]] LOL. <333333333 Life....cept what Kaila did. =[. oh well I over it.
.:Smile:.The world is round! =]]]]]]]]
~~Angel
On the other hand...I saw Horton Hears a Who! on Saturday!! It was uber-cyute! LOL. I went with Max, Nudge, Des, Chappy, and Jason...I think I got em all. OOHH then we went to Dairy Queen and got ICE CREAM!! Yumm! =] I was happy.
Yesterday was Easter! Candyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! =]]]]]]]]]] LOL. <333333333 Life....cept what Kaila did. =[. oh well I over it.
.:Smile:.The world is round! =]]]]]]]]
~~Angel
Friday, March 21, 2008
HYYYYYYYYYPPPPPEEEEEERRRRRR
I AM SO (bad word) HYPER!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOO (not yelling)!!!!!!
omg ari knows who sk8er boy is! whaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! it sucks! =[ well anyways ummmmm life is good cept erika and kaila are like keeping me out of "the looop" they are going to do something but idk what it is and they won't let me know!!!!! (i hate you all) they have the same minds as nudge...sadness
DOODE I GOT MR4!!! I borrowed it from Gabby!!! Ilylas!!!!
~~Angel <3 Sk8er Boy
(Hyper)
Doode, P.S. High school counsiler came today. I don't wanna go to High school!!!!! *cries spastcally*screams* YOU CAN'T MAKE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEH!!!!!!! (awww sk8er boy just left the room...don't ask he was just here) Anyway, THIS IS SO CONFUSING I DON'T WANNA PICK MY CLASSES THESE SILLY CREDITS ARE SO CONFUSING I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!! Sorry. All done ranting.
~~Angel (again) <3 Sk8er Boy
omg ari knows who sk8er boy is! whaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! it sucks! =[ well anyways ummmmm life is good cept erika and kaila are like keeping me out of "the looop" they are going to do something but idk what it is and they won't let me know!!!!! (i hate you all) they have the same minds as nudge...sadness
DOODE I GOT MR4!!! I borrowed it from Gabby!!! Ilylas!!!!
~~Angel <3 Sk8er Boy
(Hyper)
Doode, P.S. High school counsiler came today. I don't wanna go to High school!!!!! *cries spastcally*screams* YOU CAN'T MAKE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEH!!!!!!! (awww sk8er boy just left the room...don't ask he was just here) Anyway, THIS IS SO CONFUSING I DON'T WANNA PICK MY CLASSES THESE SILLY CREDITS ARE SO CONFUSING I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!! Sorry. All done ranting.
~~Angel (again) <3 Sk8er Boy
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Doctor's office
Suckish. I dislike doctors greatly. They are evil. She scratched my arm! Well she had to. With a little slide thinger for a microscope...yeah don't ask. Long story.
ANYAYZ...Sk8er Boy was absent again. =[[[ Maybe he's sick...I mean...I DON'T CARE!!! I don't even like him anymore!! *sigh*
Iggy and I talked last night...There's some confuzzlation going on. With me anyways. So yep. Blahhhhh!!
La di da. do de dah. me mi mo. fe fi foe. lmao.
FUNNY!!! AND RANDOM!!!
MOOOOOOOO!!!
QWACK!!!!!
OMG! GUESS WHAT???!!!!?!? The world is round. So smiiiiii-yellllllllllll!!!! =]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] Yeah me happyful!
~~Angel
ANYAYZ...Sk8er Boy was absent again. =[[[ Maybe he's sick...I mean...I DON'T CARE!!! I don't even like him anymore!! *sigh*
Iggy and I talked last night...There's some confuzzlation going on. With me anyways. So yep. Blahhhhh!!
La di da. do de dah. me mi mo. fe fi foe. lmao.
FUNNY!!! AND RANDOM!!!
MOOOOOOOO!!!
QWACK!!!!!
OMG! GUESS WHAT???!!!!?!? The world is round. So smiiiiii-yellllllllllll!!!! =]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] Yeah me happyful!
~~Angel
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Edited
Two posts ago were edited. New York is no more. He is now...Sk8er Boy because there are so many of them and no one know exactly who it is!! mwahahahahahahahaha!!! *evil* I am EVIIIIIIIL ANGEL!!! hehehehehe.
Lol so yupppers yuppers i am bordersers. yeshy yeshy.
OMGOMGOMG!!!
SMILE: THE WORLD IS ROUND!!!(not yelling)
~~Angel
P.S. If something exciting happens I will edit this post.
Lol so yupppers yuppers i am bordersers. yeshy yeshy.
OMGOMGOMG!!!
SMILE: THE WORLD IS ROUND!!!(not yelling)
~~Angel
P.S. If something exciting happens I will edit this post.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Capital S-l-u-t's!!!
I hate "it girls" they suck. All they talk about is guys. I think they know I like Sk8er Boy because theyre saying who would go out with him???!?!?
So yeah. And plus theyre like "he likes julia and holly and emili and andrea" and going through naming everyine who he likes. *crushed* maybe I don't like him anymore. I shouldn't. maybe he's gay...=] LOL I hope so so that I can move on. *moves on* jk I wish. I don't really like anyone else though. *sigh* eyyup.
~~Angel
So yeah. And plus theyre like "he likes julia and holly and emili and andrea" and going through naming everyine who he likes. *crushed* maybe I don't like him anymore. I shouldn't. maybe he's gay...=] LOL I hope so so that I can move on. *moves on* jk I wish. I don't really like anyone else though. *sigh* eyyup.
~~Angel
Aiight
Yeah so yeah.
Liz...I love you like a sister, but...DIE!!!! *poke in side* hahahaha jk BORED. I was going to say something important but idk what it was. ummm...yeah.
Doode Sk8er Boy is amazing!! LOL DO NOT ASK!!!! Sk8er Boy isn't here.=[[[[[ oh well i'll live.
BORED BORED BORED =]]]
smile: the world is round!
Oh! I am DONE with pain...if ya know what I mean...=]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] *huuuuuuge smile!!*
~~Angel
Liz...I love you like a sister, but...DIE!!!! *poke in side* hahahaha jk BORED. I was going to say something important but idk what it was. ummm...yeah.
Doode Sk8er Boy is amazing!! LOL DO NOT ASK!!!! Sk8er Boy isn't here.=[[[[[ oh well i'll live.
BORED BORED BORED =]]]
smile: the world is round!
Oh! I am DONE with pain...if ya know what I mean...=]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] *huuuuuuge smile!!*
~~Angel
Monday, March 17, 2008
yeaaaaaaaaahhh idk what to call this
ummmmm...problem time!! (but who cares about my problems?)
well allllllll weekend I've been HAPPY =]]]!!! But I get to school and its like *whack* DePrEsSiOn =[[[[[!!!! IDK why, but it may have something to do with...well...with people. Guy people. LOL.
I feel bad cause I didn't go to Kaila's party yesterday! =[[[ Depression City over here!!!! (Not fuuuuunn!!!) Sorry Kaila!!
So yeah, random stuff. Sad. Happy. In between. RAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Idk what that was.
Science is evil to me...or maybe that's just the teacher...Nope, it's the subject. The teacher is sooooooo nice!! Well anyayzes, the world goes round and round!!
Lots of loooooooove,
~~Angel
well allllllll weekend I've been HAPPY =]]]!!! But I get to school and its like *whack* DePrEsSiOn =[[[[[!!!! IDK why, but it may have something to do with...well...with people. Guy people. LOL.
I feel bad cause I didn't go to Kaila's party yesterday! =[[[ Depression City over here!!!! (Not fuuuuunn!!!) Sorry Kaila!!
So yeah, random stuff. Sad. Happy. In between. RAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Idk what that was.
Science is evil to me...or maybe that's just the teacher...Nope, it's the subject. The teacher is sooooooo nice!! Well anyayzes, the world goes round and round!!
Lots of loooooooove,
~~Angel
Friday, March 14, 2008
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
HOLY EFFING SHT!!!!!!! THEY'RE GOING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAX AND JASON ARE OMGOMGOMGOMG I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPP *jumps up and down screaming* whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~~Angel
~~Angel
I'm okay, but hyper
okay so I am officially single!! it kinda sucks kinda doesn't at the same time. sooooooooooo
whats new with all my friends? (robby, you are included as my friend, okay?)
To Robby: I do not hate you, just so you know. I just think that what I did was best. We can still be friends and I still trust you with my secrets and what not so please don't tell anyone cuz I still trust you.
~~Angel
whats new with all my friends? (robby, you are included as my friend, okay?)
To Robby: I do not hate you, just so you know. I just think that what I did was best. We can still be friends and I still trust you with my secrets and what not so please don't tell anyone cuz I still trust you.
~~Angel
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Being Random
My life sucks but I'm HYPER!!!! *pokes Erika*
Erika: bitch
Me: :O
Erika: hahah loser
Me: *Grabs bazooka out of thin air...shoots Erika as she turns into a zombie*
Erika: comes back bites brittany
Me: Okay, Erika, prepare to di-*shoots bazooka again but it backfires and I fall over on my butt laughing like a maniac* That was awesome!!!
okay never mind. all done being dumb. guess what?!??!
I'm hyper.
I'm obsessed with Superchic[k].
I love music.
Max, Erika, Nudge, and Des are my best friends so Whooooooooooo!!!!
The world is round.
I want to shoot Emili Tardiff with a bazooka. =]]]]]]
I hate people who thinks everyone likes them.
Here's a list of these people:
Emili Tardiff, Andrea Haley, Christine Montgomery, Katelynn Leavitt, and a bunch of people in other clans, and a few dudes too I just can't think of any right now though. LOL I luvers yoo all friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~~Angel
Erika: bitch
Me: :O
Erika: hahah loser
Me: *Grabs bazooka out of thin air...shoots Erika as she turns into a zombie*
Erika: comes back bites brittany
Me: Okay, Erika, prepare to di-*shoots bazooka again but it backfires and I fall over on my butt laughing like a maniac* That was awesome!!!
okay never mind. all done being dumb. guess what?!??!
I'm hyper.
I'm obsessed with Superchic[k].
I love music.
Max, Erika, Nudge, and Des are my best friends so Whooooooooooo!!!!
The world is round.
I want to shoot Emili Tardiff with a bazooka. =]]]]]]
I hate people who thinks everyone likes them.
Here's a list of these people:
Emili Tardiff, Andrea Haley, Christine Montgomery, Katelynn Leavitt, and a bunch of people in other clans, and a few dudes too I just can't think of any right now though. LOL I luvers yoo all friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~~Angel
Love, Life, and Drama
Do you see why I called my blog this? My life is full of drama!!
Well, on a normal, happy, non-depressing note: There's a new student in my clan! He's REALLY nice...so far. His name's Wei and he's in my social studies class. He drew on my shoe and wrote: I stepped in poop.
I did NOT step in poop, just so everyone knows!!!!!
Erika likes my body(When it's not Thursday!!!)!! And now she's flinging things at me!! LOL. *pokes Erika in the forehead* I'm happy. I should write a happy poem. I am getting better and better everyday. I am going to WIN this battle!!!!!!! I promise you. I promise everyone, I will win this battle.
Random poem time!!
Fight for What I Love
I am going to fight
I am going to win.
With you by my side
And God guiding my way
I know this will end very soon.
I haven't been able to cry
But maybe that's for the better.
I know that I love you
And that my fiends love me back.
This will be hard,
This will be scary,
But it's a chance I'm willing to take.
I will try and try
For what is right
And I will fight for what I love.
~~Angel
Well, on a normal, happy, non-depressing note: There's a new student in my clan! He's REALLY nice...so far. His name's Wei and he's in my social studies class. He drew on my shoe and wrote: I stepped in poop.
I did NOT step in poop, just so everyone knows!!!!!
Erika likes my body(When it's not Thursday!!!)!! And now she's flinging things at me!! LOL. *pokes Erika in the forehead* I'm happy. I should write a happy poem. I am getting better and better everyday. I am going to WIN this battle!!!!!!! I promise you. I promise everyone, I will win this battle.
Random poem time!!
Fight for What I Love
I am going to fight
I am going to win.
With you by my side
And God guiding my way
I know this will end very soon.
I haven't been able to cry
But maybe that's for the better.
I know that I love you
And that my fiends love me back.
This will be hard,
This will be scary,
But it's a chance I'm willing to take.
I will try and try
For what is right
And I will fight for what I love.
~~Angel
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
oh kay
umm...that was never meant to happen.
i never knew he had a google account. my life just ended.
wow.
well okay...
ur right. it IS my choice. and idk what joey was saying. i'm not dealing with any of my problems. i haven't even faced the fact that i cut!! i know i do it-i'm consious of it-but i haven't realized what i'm doing!!!!!! i can't face it! its too hard.
Robby, You have no fricking clue what i'm going through! If you were going through this, you would make the same choice!!!!!!!!! so...w/e.
~~Angel (Depressed)
i never knew he had a google account. my life just ended.
wow.
well okay...
ur right. it IS my choice. and idk what joey was saying. i'm not dealing with any of my problems. i haven't even faced the fact that i cut!! i know i do it-i'm consious of it-but i haven't realized what i'm doing!!!!!! i can't face it! its too hard.
Robby, You have no fricking clue what i'm going through! If you were going through this, you would make the same choice!!!!!!!!! so...w/e.
~~Angel (Depressed)
You know what I noticed?
I hate people. Well, "popular" people. The ones who dress in American Eagle and wear expensive shoes? All they talk about is: "My hair's a mess!" "Can I go get my iPod? Oh my God I don't care!" "I love your myspace song!"
It is so annoying!! I hate people like that! And other people who just walk around going: "Oh, I'm so cool!" *cough cough* Katie!! lol well anyways,
After Iggy gets back we will be Iggel no more. Why? Because I think he is the reason why I am cutting still. I haven't cut since he's been absent from school. What do you people think? BEST FRIEND ALERT!!!
Luvers you all,
~~Angel
It is so annoying!! I hate people like that! And other people who just walk around going: "Oh, I'm so cool!" *cough cough* Katie!! lol well anyways,
After Iggy gets back we will be Iggel no more. Why? Because I think he is the reason why I am cutting still. I haven't cut since he's been absent from school. What do you people think? BEST FRIEND ALERT!!!
Luvers you all,
~~Angel
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
HERO
I am obsessed with Hero by Superchic[k]!!!!! AAAHHH!!! I love them!!!
You need that boy like a bowling ball dropped on ur head which means not at all!!!!!!
So that means something to me. bnoth the songs do. Well, I want to be a hero and make the right choice!!! Whoooo!
I wasn't stupid last night! Yay, me! Love you friends,
~~Angel
You need that boy like a bowling ball dropped on ur head which means not at all!!!!!!
So that means something to me. bnoth the songs do. Well, I want to be a hero and make the right choice!!! Whoooo!
I wasn't stupid last night! Yay, me! Love you friends,
~~Angel
Monday, March 10, 2008
well thats over
As in my happy streak. It ended yesterday, and I did the stupid again. Its because me and my mom went to my great-grandfather's house to visit. he wanted all my nana's stuff GONE so we were told to take what we wanted. so i ended up w/ a doll, 2 TY's and a crystal rose. I feel so BAD but if its what was wanted...
plus on friday i went to max's...but something that happened that i wish never did.
New band: Superchic[k]!!!
~~Angel
plus on friday i went to max's...but something that happened that i wish never did.
New band: Superchic[k]!!!
~~Angel
Friday, March 7, 2008
Whoo *sarcasm*
eh I hate sadness. I am saddened. I will try to be happy but the sadness is over-whelming. I think I'm gonna call my mommy when i get to Max's later. I hope she handled this well. I don't think I can even handle knowing the funeral was today!! AAHH!! *cries* whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! =[[[[[[[ so like yeah its hard for me.
*cries more* cry cry cry!! ehhhhhhhhh. sickish feelings.
Random Poem:
The sadness falls over me
Like darkness falls over day.
I can't bear this pain;
It's hurting me.
And then I fall down
With the pain in my heart.
It attacks me fast
Then slowly leaves.
But the scar it left will always be there.
~~Angel
*cries more* cry cry cry!! ehhhhhhhhh. sickish feelings.
Random Poem:
The sadness falls over me
Like darkness falls over day.
I can't bear this pain;
It's hurting me.
And then I fall down
With the pain in my heart.
It attacks me fast
Then slowly leaves.
But the scar it left will always be there.
~~Angel
Dear Nana,
Today, at 1:00 is my great-grandmother's funeral. I was going to go, but I decided not to. I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it, so I'm going to Janae's instead. I have no idea what will be said there, but I am going to e-pray.
*bows head*
Dear God,
Please look after my great-grandmother Anne Louise Mooers for me. She was a nice person and didn't deserve to go. So, please, God, tell her I love her and I'm sorry I didn't get to say good-bye. I love you, Nana, and have a good after-life. We all miss you and love you still. God bless you,
Amen
So there it was.
~~Angel
*bows head*
Please look after my great-grandmother Anne Louise Mooers for me. She was a nice person and didn't deserve to go. So, please, God, tell her I love her and I'm sorry I didn't get to say good-bye. I love you, Nana, and have a good after-life. We all miss you and love you still. God bless you,
Amen
So there it was.
~~Angel
Okay, prepared to be amazed!
I didn't do anything stupid last night!! Yay, me!! I did write a poem last night though...actually a song. *curtains open and I walk on stage* *the spotlight turns on* Umm, you mind turning that down a tad?...Thanks! *I grab the mic and it sqeaks (oops!)* Ahem!
Stay Strong and Hold On
I never thought this day would come
I never thought I'd say good-bye
One last time.
And I hope you know
That I dind't mean to hurt you
By not saying that I love you.
But you know I do.
I just want you to know that
(Chorus)
I will saty strong
And I will hold on
Just for you.
I promise I won't cry
When I'm saying my good-bye's.
I'll just stay strong
And I'll hold on!
Justs so you know
No one wanted you to go.
So we'll all try to be strong.
And we'll try to live our lives.
Eventually we will move on
But you'll always be in our hearts.
(Chorus)
I will stay strong
Oh---Oh
I will hold on
Oh---Oh
I will stay strong!
And I will hold on!
*Crowd cheers estacically*
Thank you, thank you!
Heads up for another post later!!
~~Angel
I never thought this day would come
I never thought I'd say good-bye
One last time.
And I hope you know
That I dind't mean to hurt you
By not saying that I love you.
But you know I do.
I just want you to know that
(Chorus)
I will saty strong
And I will hold on
Just for you.
I promise I won't cry
When I'm saying my good-bye's.
I'll just stay strong
And I'll hold on!
Justs so you know
No one wanted you to go.
So we'll all try to be strong.
And we'll try to live our lives.
Eventually we will move on
But you'll always be in our hearts.
(Chorus)
I will stay strong
Oh---Oh
I will hold on
Oh---Oh
I will stay strong!
And I will hold on!
*Crowd cheers estacically*
Thank you, thank you!
Heads up for another post later!!
~~Angel
Thursday, March 6, 2008
My favorite
Okay the last post - scratch it. Minus the VISIT THESE PEEPS part.
I figured out how to make another blog!! Yay!! I made it in dedication to Good Charlotte. I copied Des but w/ a different band. =] *sheepish grin* no hurt me?
Here is url
http://gcmusic5maddens.blogspot.com/
~~Angel
I figured out how to make another blog!! Yay!! I made it in dedication to Good Charlotte. I copied Des but w/ a different band. =] *sheepish grin* no hurt me?
Here is url
http://gcmusic5maddens.blogspot.com/
~~Angel
How do you...
Make another blog? Like on the same account as this one, but like w/ a different subject or whatever??? eeeh.
cool blogs:
Nudge: http://theflocknessmonster.blogspot.com
Max: http://bemsdrama.blogspot.com
Des: http://nirvanamama.blogspot.com and http://livinthedeslife.blogspot.com
Ari: http://ariandtheflock.blogspot.com
Erika: http://daiglebagel.blogspot.com
yupp so talk to these peeps kay?
~~Angel
cool blogs:
Nudge: http://theflocknessmonster.blogspot.com
Max: http://bemsdrama.blogspot.com
Des: http://nirvanamama.blogspot.com and http://livinthedeslife.blogspot.com
Ari: http://ariandtheflock.blogspot.com
Erika: http://daiglebagel.blogspot.com
yupp so talk to these peeps kay?
~~Angel
DESIRAY
I know that pain is not the answer. If you read the comment I left you, then, I said that I want to stop. I just need you to help me out by not saying things that will hurt me more. okay? I will stop. NOW. Right here, right now. IDC how hard it is to stop, I will refrain from hurting. I'll hurt inside, but I will NEVER hurt myself again.
I luvv you like a sister and I never wanted to hurt you.
P.S. Breanne asked about you last night. Yeah, she called.
~~Angel
I luvv you like a sister and I never wanted to hurt you.
P.S. Breanne asked about you last night. Yeah, she called.
~~Angel
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
no matter what...
max, nudge, and des:
I'm sorry for all the troub;e I've caused but I wish I could take it back. Please forgive me and just help me through my hard times. Just remember, no matter what,
Blinkyou.com
I'm sorry for all the troub;e I've caused but I wish I could take it back. Please forgive me and just help me through my hard times. Just remember, no matter what,
Blinkyou.com
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Help Me!
I cut again.
Now I wish I could bleed. Why? I'm bleeding inside.I'm still upset I've been cutting so I do it again. That's another reason why I want to bleed.
The, 2 nights ago, my great grandmother died. I never really got to say god-bye, so I did it again.
And to top it all off, I feel like my friends don't care!! Nudge was listening until Max walked up and then it's like, "Angel who?" So idk wtf is up with that.
I haven't cried yet. Is that normal?
~~Angel
Now I wish I could bleed. Why? I'm bleeding inside.I'm still upset I've been cutting so I do it again. That's another reason why I want to bleed.
The, 2 nights ago, my great grandmother died. I never really got to say god-bye, so I did it again.
And to top it all off, I feel like my friends don't care!! Nudge was listening until Max walked up and then it's like, "Angel who?" So idk wtf is up with that.
I haven't cried yet. Is that normal?
~~Angel
Monday, March 3, 2008
okay
okay ignore the last post.
I. Need. Help. Now.
I keep cutting and I REALLY want to stop. Its like ADDICTING. So now, evvery time I get upset about something, that's what I do. It makes me sad that I do that. So I do it again. Its like HORRIBLE!!!! HELP ME NOW OR IDK WHAT I'LL DO!!!!
Friends: PLEASE??!
I. Need. Help. Now.
I keep cutting and I REALLY want to stop. Its like ADDICTING. So now, evvery time I get upset about something, that's what I do. It makes me sad that I do that. So I do it again. Its like HORRIBLE!!!! HELP ME NOW OR IDK WHAT I'LL DO!!!!
Friends: PLEASE??!
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