I'm baaaaack!

We had our laptops taken away and I didn't know if I could go on here at home. I guess I can. =]
Well, school ends tomorrow, June 16th. I'm VERY sad, cause I just met two awesome people like two and three days before school ends! One is Michelle and she's REALLY nice and funny, and we share a couple things in common.
The other peson is Eric and he's really nice, too. He goes on Nudge's bus and helped me out w/ stuff.
Well, g2g and like cry or something cause I'm not going o Nudge's tomorrow cause her mom is stubborn!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! I don't want to go to my cousis or to the HS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bye,
Angel out

omg

i did it! well me and nudge did it. we auditioned. "we lived" through it=]. i am still freaked out!! eeeeeek!!!!!!

"You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it."
Margaret Thatcher

cool quote. thats me right there. =]

@->--
0=] Angel

k, here's more on the day. it is 12:31 pm and i worte the other part at...11 something. anyways...
if you thought your friends were amazing and they REALLY cared about you, and you wanted to ask a specific somebody something, and you said, well, i don't know how to, and then they went and asked them for you after you said you wanted to do it yourself. would you say they were good friends? yeah, didn't think so.
sorry, rant over.
my life sucks =DDDDDDDDDDDDD

happy happy joy joy
@->--
0=] Angel

yay!!

auditions for the talent show are today!!!!!! i'm so excited there in the class after this one for me!!!!!! can't wait!!! =]]]]]]]]
@->--
0=]Angel

Confusing stuff

Love sucks. I hate it. I am never going to fall in love again.
I went to Robby's last night and we talked about stuff. It sucks though, because I think I like him again! But I still like someone else, too. My life is falling apart right now. I can't go out with him again, he will destroy my life like he did before. It all is horrible.
*screams* This sucks!!!!!!!!! I hate it I hate it I hate it!!!!!! =[
"If love does not know how to give and take without restrictions, it is not love, but a transaction that never fails to lay stress on a plus and a minus."

*sigh* Well, here's a poem for yas.

Lost
I'm running in circles
And getting no where
I'm screaming for help
And getting none
I'm going crazy
All alone
I'm running away
And getting lost
I'm afraid to love
I'm afraid to get hurt
I'm digging my grave
Deeper by the minute
Deeper by the second
With every step I take
With every word I speak
With every breath I take
Losing hope
And losing you
I'm running straight ahead
But I keep getting lost
I keep walking down the wrong path
Going in circles
Getting lost
In the tangle of lies
In the tangle of hope
In the tangle of regret
I am lost and getting no where
I am lost and getting no where
I am lost
I am gone
And I can't be found
I am lost
~~Angel/BJT/Colimba/Pocahontis =]

@->--
0=]Angel0=]
@->--
P.S. I didn't slap Kaila. And here's my poem blog: http://poems-from-angel.blogspot.com/ =]]]]]]]]

lol

new nickname from max, des, and pathfinder group! I am Pocahontis!!!! lol. we were trying to figure out who would be what character from disney. and i am pocahontis.
i should totally make a new blog just for my poems...i might just do that ya know. so heads up, if i meantion any thing about it, then go check out my poems kk? thanks in advance.
read the poem in last poem. be a critic, please, criticize it!! pleeeeeeease???? thanks again in advance. =]
feeling okay today. so far. it is only the morning.
next week pathfinders goes on the week long trip. we are going to moosehead lake and hiking and canoing and its going to be funn!!!!!!!!!!
yay! okis, anyways,

@->-- Angel
Colimba @->--
@->-- Pocahontis =]

P.S. I am about to slap Kaila in the face.

is something wrong with me?

i'm getting help, but i'm still depressed. and yes, i know i am, cuz i looked up the symptoms and i have more than 5 of the first set and 4 of 5 in the kids set. so...somethings up with me. which sucks.
anyways. here's a loooooong poem i wrote:

Untitled

living in this scary life
being pushed down to the ground
being kicked around
being hurt and scarred
never knowing what is right
not knowing what is wrong
hurting inside
bleeding outside
hating all that is there
precious moments
turn to dust
beneath my shining eyes
that don’t cry tears
or hope or love
not crying at all
where is my life
where has it gone
i do not know
anymore
i’m falling into a hole
digging my grave deeper
not knowing when
or how
its going to happen
i’m dying hopelessly
never knowing
what is going on around me
who to trust
who to love
who to turn to
where do i go
there’s no where left
there’s no where to run
no where to hide
so what do i do
i can’t just give up
and i can’t keep going
what else is there to do
but suffer
suffering in this world
all alone
and not wondering
what will happen tomorrow
i’ll just let it happen
there’s no stopping fate
i lived my life
as happy as i could
until it fell apart
my world is collapsing
i’m losing it all
i’m losing my faith in everything
i’ve lost my closest friends
nothing’s right anymore
nothing was ever right before
a war has started
a battle begun
and i can’t fight
when i’m in too much pain
i can’t fight
when i have nothing to fight with
how can i win
when there’s no reason to
there’s no reason to fight
so i just give in
i just give up
i surrender
give in to the pain
that surrounds me

~~Brittany J. T.
Angel
Colimba

@->-- Angel --<-@

ladida

In science. No teacher. People are playing cards at the table in front of mine. And playing randomly annoying music. I am mad at two people. They are being *censored* *censored* *censored*!!!!!! Use your imagination there people, kay?
Life is a bit better.
I love everyone of my friends and they rock and I love them and I want to hug them so tight I sqeeze their brains out...LOL.
Okay...Bored. Everyone is going to be taking a retake on a test and I got a 94 so I don't have to. Yay me, I'm smart!
Me and Nudge are probably doing a talent show together. We are going to sing We Live. We have a solo each.
V1 = me solo
Choruses = both
V2 = both, we may split it up.
V3 = Nudge

There's a cross
On the side of the road
Where a mother lost her son
How could she know
That the morning he left
Would be their last time
She'd trade with him for a little more time
So she could say she loved him one last time
And hold him tight
Cause with life
We never know
When we're coming up to
The end of the road.
So what do we do then
With tragedy around the bend?

(Chorus X2)
We live
we love
we forgive and never give up
Cause the days we are given
Are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

There's a man who waits for the test to see if the cancer has spread yet
And now he asks "So why did I
Wait to live till it was time to die?
If I could have the time back how I'd live!
Life is such a gift."
Is this how the story ends?
Well this is your story and it all depends
So don't let it become true
Get out and do what we were meant to do

(Chorus)
We live
We love
We forgive and never give up
Cause the days we are given
Are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love
We live
we love
we forgive and never give up
Cause the days we are given
Are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

(Nudge's part)

(Chorus)

END!!!! lol

I just finished work from yesterday that I didn't feel like doing after I took the test a day late and had 15 minutes of class left. So yeah.
Love you all,
Angel
ily, Nudge...Inside joke.
Well, ily all BFFs!!

x.X|.:Angel:.|X.x

*SIGH*

life is complicated. i think u all knew that by now.
well, everything is better with me, I guess.
One sad thing though. I went to go see my Nana's grave Saturday. I was really sad. Summary: We went, I cried a little. I saw my cousin's grave...who I never met. His name was David. He was a good kid. Got mixed up in the wrong crownd. I wish I could've met him.
Now I want to name my son (if I ever have one) David. I love the name.
I miss my Nana. =[
Happy note: I might be getting a new phone w/ a new plan so i can text. yay!

Live,
Laugh,
Love,

x.X|Angel|X.x

Heads up

I can't blog next week. I guess there's this thing going on in school and we can't use our laptops at all so....yeah. just so you know. I'll update you all later.
Still sad I guess.
ugh....I have MORE problems. I've been sooooooooo uberly sad ALL DAY!! Nudge cut...because of a BOY!!!!!!!! When should she learn that boys ren't the world and the aren't what makes the world go round...I learned that. The hard way too, thanks for asking.
But yeah. Anyways, I've been uber depressed today. Like, idk but I didn't talk to ANYONE for the longest time this morning. So, if I seem pissed off, well, I probably am, but don't let me stop you!
I thought of new words last night!! I am a preppy emo...Premo...and I'm not a pessemistic person, but ot totally optimistic...so Poptimistic!!!!! I'm a poptimistic premo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolololol...not funny.
I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT...............................ME
so yeah theres my life in a nutshell.

when you look me in the eyes i catch a glimpse of heaven

that makes me sad.
anyways. i love the song Angel of Music (The Mirror). its soooooo pretty!! =]
again...anyways.
Angel of Music!
Hide no longer!
Come to me, strange
angel...~~Christine from PoTO
yupp. still sad but i'm trying not to be. I give up. I hae nothing to blog about today. See ya,
x.X| [A]ngel |X.x
@l0Ne !n th!s w0rld @nd my w0rld,
!s @ l!v!ng HELL!!

"Frozen inside without you touch without your love Darling only you are the light from all the dark...." Evanescence: Bring me to Life

Angel out

To you all

Comments that I want to respond to:

MAX: But Angel, don't you EVER tell me I don't understand you. No, it's you who doesn't understand me!

No, I don't Max. I don't understand you! I want to...I really do. I know you've been through more than me, but that's why you can handle this better than me. I'm WEAK and I've NEVER been through something like this. That's why it's so hard for me. That's what you don't understand about me.

MAX: Brittany if you died it would be my fault. I tried to help but i jsut don't know what to do anymore! I'm so scared brittany, I don't want to loose you. Please... I can't loose you. If I loose you then I loose myself.

Why can't you see what you're writing? You're writing this to me, but you're also writing this to you, but in my words. It's the SAME FUCKING THING!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why can't you just take your own advice? Why? Please? Just try to. If you die I lose myself and I'll die! Please, just take yourown advice, read what you write to me, READ IT. I mean REALLY READ IT! Just, please. I'm begging you to help me Janae. You were right, you are the only one who TRULY understands me. I'm sorry. It's all I can say. I'm sorry.

Robby, I'm so so so so sorry. If you DO go out with me again, you WILL have to earn my trust back, okay? I DO really love you. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm just about ready to let go. But I need you. And I need Janae for me to live and Keep Holding On, okay? And I'm still learning to move on from the pain I've felt from TWO WEEKS AGO. You have to understand that. If I EVER seem mean or bitchy for whatever reason, it's probably just because something happened and I'm trying to deal with it. And there will ALWAYS be some doubt with Cayla and I don't know if I want to take that chance.

I'm sorry.
I truly am.
There's nothing more I can say. I'm sorry. Just sorry. I never meant to hurt anyone, but I can't help it! I didn't mean to. I didn't want to. It just happened. I feel horrible about this and I know I can't take it back. I wish I could. I really do. I son't know what to say to make this better. I don't know what to do to fix this. I don't know who I truly am anymore. I've turned into this, lying person who can't control what she says anymore and it ALWAYS comes out a lie! I don't want to be this person. I hate myself for what I've done and what I've turned into. I lie once, and my WHOLE life becomes one huge lie.

I just need help.
I need that one person in my life. Who won't lie to me at all. Who won't be angry with me when I don't want to talk about something and won't yell at me when I try to explain how I feel. I want that so bad and I thought I had it in Robby....But then Cayla came into the picture and I lost it all. I lost everything I ever lived for. He was my life, and I lost him...It was like dying. I never want this to happen again. I WANT to believe him, but I don't know...I said there will always be some doubt. *sigh*

You know what's making me sad right now?
I just remembered that I asked Robby to go to the chorus concert in the winter but he said no. He had also said he would go to the spring one, just to see me. Now, i'm afraid to ask him to go. I'm afraid he won't want to see ME but HER. Because she's in chorus too. *sigh* I don't know. I'll think everything over. Turn it over and over in my mind until I feel like I'm going to explode...I tend to do that alot lately.

x.X| [A]ngel |X.x
So torn between what I want and what I need. What I want is to stay away from love and Robby so I can't get hurt again. But I need him so bad...=[
Angel out.

die die die

i want to die.
no one understands anything I say, no matter how hard I try to tell them. No one listens. They say they do, they say they will, but they DON'T. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME, WILL LISTEN TO ME, LOVE ME, OR HOLD ME WHEN I'M SAD IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM.
I don't even know if I trust any (guy) anymore. I give my love to ONE person...I would have given him everything. But he turned his back on me for another girl. He says he loves us both, and he needs to make a desicion. well, 1) I am NOT going to sit around and wait for a decision. 2) If someone needs to think about who they like better between two people, why should either of them like him? There's always that little bit of doubt when one person likes two people and CHOOSES one of them to go out with.
Iggy thinks that choosing the person he "loves" best is the hardest decision of his life. Well, if Cayla says no, I am NOT EVER going to take him back!! (Just so you know Robby.) And...he shouldn't even deserve to be called "Iggy" anymore. w/e.
Anyway, If he thinks that choosing a PERSON is the hardest thing to choose, try choosing life or death. That's MY hardest decision. And, Robby, don't even TRY to tell me I don't understand or w/e you usually say. Cause YOU'RE the one who doesn't understand. YOU'RE the one who doesn't listen! Here I am, struggling for life, hanging on the edge, and you say you love HER and ME?! Then, you go and say you have to DECIDE between us?! NO! I will NEVER trust you again! NEVER!
You know, and this is to everyone here, I almost broke down in social studies class today, because I didn't finish my terms. Then, again in Chourus because of the song, God Help The Outcasts. I almost started to cry. I wanted to die more than anything this morning and no one - not even me - knows why! So if anyone, even Max, says they understand...You don't. No one understands how I'm feeling! NO ONE!
I just need someone.
I need someone who will love me no matter what! No matter who those other girls are. Someone who can trust me and who I can trust. Someone to call me beautiful and smart and funny, even if I say I'm not. Someone to argue with over silly things, like...whcih baseball team is better Red Sox or Yankees. (Well, the answeer here is clear, but you know...) I want someone there for me to cry on when I need it the most. Someone...Someone to...Love. Really really love. Who won't go and turn his back on me. Who won't tell me bad things. Who won't lie to me. I need someone like that. Just like that.
But I know that will never happen, so I can just stop dreaming now.
I am in SR and trying not to just, let go, right here, right now. Cry like there's no tomorrow. Cry until the world ends. Cry forever, until I die. Just, cry.
Maybe if I had a person like the one I described, my life wouldn't be so bad right now. Well, dream's over, and so's this post.

x.X| Angel |X.x
@->-- Is depressed.

i want to kill you

max and nudge...yall got me saying oi every 5 words!! oi!! AAAHHH!!!!
i hate stuff.
i'm bored.
i'm tired.
i'm hungry.
i wanna go home!!!
ooohh!! i got a guitara tuner!! yay! lol
i went to north conway friday and took about 75 pictures in 2 days!! lol. we went to kangamagis highway and to mount washington, but the road was closed and stuff so we just kept driving up. i had sooo much fun!!!
love you all,
max you rock,

x.X| Angel |X.x

testing

real post later...brb

Lean on me

when your not strong
i'll be your friend i'll help you carry on
for it won't be long
till i'm gonna need
somebody to lean on.

i love that song. its like mine and j's song i think.

i've been feeling SO great lately. me and my dad have been hanging out a lot lately and stuff. over vacation (yay!) me and my family are going to go to north conway and stay in a hotel. max is coming over tonight. i have to watch my cousin's bunny while shes away starting sunday i think. and my familhy has gotten closer.

some...times in our lives,
we all have pains
we all have sorrows
but...if we are wise
we know that there's
always tomorrow.

lean on me
when you're not strong
i'll be your friend
i'll help you carry ooonn
for..it won't be long
till i'm gonna need
somebody to lean on
~~Lean on me

x.X|.:Friends:.|X.x
Do the [R!GHT] thing (NO MATTER) {WHAT}

x.x| A N G E L |X.x

Laptops

Matt got one! Lucky! He got it yesterday...and he showed me it. It is black and has Windows Vista Priemium (or w/e) and it has a buit in webcam! Can you say...OMG LUCKY?!! I WANT ONE!! Cause I can.
After the Philidellphia trip this summer I'm going to save up for one because we don't get one in High School. =[ oh well...or...*evil grin* i could just...steal...Matt's...or Max's...lol just kidding.
*sigh* bored. oooh...

Eye L0ve x.X|.:F R I E N D S:.|X.x
They do the [RIGHT thing] {NO MATTER WHAT}

x.X|Angel|X.x

LEAN ON ME
http://www.dizzler.com/music/Bill_Withers/Lean_On_Me

This is suckish

Well, i'm not alowed to say whats going on with me (i'll have more on that later) but I can tell you this.
Max wanted to die. Like literally die. I don't know if she's really going to talk to someone or not, but she said she will. It just makes me sad. Max, if you're reading this, I'll do whatever you need. kk?
the other thing...ugh. makes me mad.
robby is being a total jerk lately. idc if you read this either. i don't want to tell you some things. and you have to get used to it. ya know...you are the worst person for trying to FORCE it out if me!!! I'm not ALLOWED to talk about it. okay? and I KNOW you love Cayla okay? idc. go out with her i...i am SO FUCKING MAD AT YOU FOR SAYING THINGS LIKE THAT OKAY?
anyways....
I l0ve x.X|.:Friends:.|X.x
Angel

Here at last

I am at school. It took me a while, but I'm here. I had to come today so that I could go to pathfinders. But me and my dad took a little bit of this morning off. We went to...yay...Target. But I got mmy semi-formal shoes and I got CANDY!!! Then we went to borders and my daddy bought me a visual learning guitar book. I can't wait to use it...but I probaly can't tonight because of pathfinders, food, and chores tonight and by then my brother will be sleeping.
vacation's next week!!
Max, Des, Nudge, And Chappy,

~x.X|.: I C O U L D N ' T L I V E W I T H O U T Y O U!!:.|X.x~
Thanks for being such good friends.
Max, you did the right thing, thank you...and my family loves you...(my real family)
Ari, sorry for the scare. =] forgive meeh? *hugs my "family"* i love you all!!!!!

x.X| A N G E L |X.x

x.X| Angel Marie |X.x


P.S....NO MORE DEPRESSION!!!! (I'm for real this time!) =]]]]]

I can't get enough!

I can't stop blogging!!! Its a MAJOR addiction!! lol. PROMOTING WEBSITE!!! PLEASE HELP ME PROMOTE IT!! http://besome1new.conforums.com
okay promo over.
whats up world?
yeah I'm bored...

x.X|.:Angel:.|X.x

.:Angel Marie:.

FINISHED!!

Zee website eez feeneeshed!! lol Translate: The website is finished!! lol.
whoooooo check it out!! pease? For meeh? Join mebee too? peeeeeeaaaaassssse??????? otay, bye bye mis amigoses!!

x.X| A N G E L |X.x

Br0ken [Hearts] Club

http://besome1new.conforums.com

x.X|.:Angel Marie:.|X.x

There's more

I am still....depressed.
Last night, I had the urge to do it again. F*ck it all!!!! It makes me SO angry!!! *sigh* I couldn't, so I'm okay now.
Max says talk to a trusted adult. I would, but one problem...I don't trust any adults. Especially my parents!! Maybe Robby's mom could help...idk. I'll figure sometihng out.
Anyone have any advice?

x.X|.:A N G E L:.|x.x
http://besome1new.conforums.com

I just HAD to tell you all. It would kill me if I didn't.

Itchy...

My arm is itchy...totally random...hmmm...
hi.
My name is Angel. I am completly weird. I have nothing to write about...
I get to keep the guitar. yay! bored.
umm...
bye

x.X|.:A N G E L:.|X.x

JUST IN!!!! MY WEBSITE IS DONE...for the most part anyways. The boards are done I just have to fix the colors and stuff like that...so come check it out, kk? http://besome1new.conforums.com

America's Next Freak

I have the song stuch in my head...hehe.

We are entering our classes today for high school courses...gah! I REALLY don't want to go next year. Just...I don't like new things and stuff.
well, ummm...life is good. I had like 3 caffeine mints and i want to go to sleep!! lol. I have Jones soda in my backpack for lunch so yay!
lalala
I won't be America's next freak I will not lay down everytime you speak and if all you see is America's next freak then take me home just take me hoooo-ooome.
love the song and its stuck in mah head.
theres a dance friday and i'm not gonna go. i hate the dances hosted by Standish Rec. they suck, or so i've heard.
*shoots dance with bazooka* haha....*sigh*
robby....u....ugh....idk....u make me sad and angry and frustrated.....i hate people sometimes....especially....idk what i was gonna say....
WHOOOO WEBSITE!! ITS MINE ALL MINE!!!! http://besome1new.conforums.com
its not done yet though. soooo....don't go untill its done...i'll let u all know when.

x.X| A N G E L |X.x

Make sure you read

the post below. This is just...idk but the one below is the real one.
And this is to Robby only:

So, who are you lying to? Me or Cayla? You tell her that you don't like me and your all like I love you to me. So who are you lying to and why? You know what, I don't even wany to know. I know I said I'm forgiving everyone and everything, but that was Friday. This is today. Sunday, I really started over. So, no more grudges, no more lies, no more looking back on the past. No more of it. So...Starting now, I will NOT tolerate anyone LYING to ME, holding GRUDGES against ME (or friends) and I will NOT let anyone remind me of the past. So, Robby, MAKE UP YOUR MIND OKAY?
thanks...

x.X|.:A N G E L:.|X.x
p.s Max got me addicted to doing that.

FORGET IT!!!

FORGET ABOUT ALL OF THE PAST AND DEORESSING POSTS!!! I AM NOT EMO OR DEPRESSED!!!!!! Me and Janae both moved on. I was at her house on Friday and we shredded all of it!! All the notes, poems, and drawings!! Then she threw away her knives and stuff she used to get high! I am SO proud of her and I love her like a sister sooooo much!! No one could be more happy than me today!!! And yesterday at church was a communion which my pastor said was a day to start over. I am so happy!!

Lots of love to all of ya,
x.X| S.M.I.L.E The world is R.O.U.N.D |X.x
~~Angel

sad but true

LET GO

Love turns to loved
Happy turns to sad
Social turns to alone
Canfident turns to scared
Hopeful turns to hopeless
We turn into nothing.

Almost like we never exsisted.

I should move on
but I know I'll never
Let go.

He's still in my heart

On my mind

In my soul.

But I should do what's right
and move on.
Let him live his life

without me.
Don't let him hurt
the one he's with.

Just let go.
~~Angel

Broken Hearts Club here.
Life is in the midst of...I don't know right now.
Well, I talked to Robby last night...I'm so confused. He confuses me. And makes me sad. And frustrates me. I hate love. Love is for losers. I am no loser. I don't need love...of maybe I do...maybe that's why I...*small voice* cut again last night. I'm so sorry. I just need help!! What do I do? Please someone help me? Please oh, please, just someone help me! I'm BEGGING for someone to help me right now. I keep pushing everyone away that wants to help, and I don't listen to their advice. All this anger is built up inside of me and it won't come out unless I make it bleed out!! I'm so confused and lost. Maybe Max and help me. Max, oh, Max, my sister, my friend, my refuge. I go to you for help. I don't listen and this is the price I pay. Please help me one last time. I swear I'll listen this time just help me...please? *cries* okay, I'm not really crying, but I want to soooooooo bad right now, but I'm in the middle of class so I won't.
Well, I'll try to be okay and smile.
.:Smile:. for me, the world is round.

~~Angel [depressed...idk]

okay last post for today

ummm well i just read ur comment robby and i'm glad u like hanging out w/ me and stuff. stay with cayla. it doesn't matter that you don't know her thats why ur in a relationship with her right? to get to know her better. so STAY and be HAPPY!! =]] like me seee =]]]]]]]]]] HAPPPY even though...yeah....well

like i was saying. stay. good dog. lol
idk what i was gonna say...ciao!

~~Angel

Broken Hearts Club

I once was loved
And my heart had soared!
I once had loved,
Now I don't know how.

Then my heart had broken;
I lost the only one
Who had ever cared for me.
Now I have no one.

My heart became mended,
Patched but not happy.
I hurt all over, inside and out.
But I knew it would never work.

I lost my love and my heart shattered!
I thought I could never love.
My heart aches for somebody
To be near me and love me.

When you tell me that you love me
My heart feels like it will slowly mend
But then I remember that you love her
And say that you want me!

What do I do and
What do I say?
Nothing.
My heart dissolves into nothing.

So I sit and cry all day
Do I listen to you?
Or beleive my heart?
I wish that I could do both.

I have lost so many things
I don't want to lose you again.
My heart is aching and I don't
Wan tit to break again.

~~Angel

Broken Hearts Club is for ppl like me and Kaila only.
My music ended...okay its back. Its a song called Help Me Out God by Superchick and I love it sooooooo much and I've only heard it once!! Amazing.

ONE MONTH AGO TODAY I FOUND OUT MY NANA HAD PASSED AWAY. I JUST WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I LOVE HER AND I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET HER...sooo....
Nana, I love you and will never forget you. You are in my heart all day everyday. Miss you,
Brittany

~~Angel

poems. again.

Music Box

I turn the key
Round and round
Till my fingers
Hurt just so I can hear
The precious song that plays.
It reminds me so much of you
And how much I miss you.
It speaks for us
Our silent goodbye's.
It cries for us
Our unshed tears.
It mends for us
Our broken hearts,
Reaching and stretching,
But narrowly missing each other.
It plays for us
Our music of refuge.
First for you, as I suspect,
You went to it for comfort
And now its my turn.
The delicate little box
That holds our unsaid bond.
The music box is the only thing
That helps me truly remember
Who I am
And where you are.
If not for that little box,
I would not know what to do,
But I'd rather have that
Than not have you.

~~Angel

Not finished yet...

I once was loved
And my heart had soared!
I once had loved,
But now I don't know how.

Then my heart had broken;
I lost the only one
Who had ever cared for me.
Now I have no one.

My heart became mended,
Patched but not happy.
I hurt all over, inside and out.
But I knew it would never work.

I lost my love and my heart shattered!


That's all I got.

~~Angel [happy, I guess...I love music! (random)]

we live we love we forgive

and never give up cause the days we are given are gifts from above and today we remember to live and to lo-o-ove. whoooooo i love superchick!!
http://www.dizzler.com/music/Superchick/We_Live
veryyyy nice sooong!! it makes meh happy!

HAHAHA I WAS RIGHT!! My friend told me!!! HA! She said he's only going out with her to forget about me! I was RIGHT!!!! HA IN UR FACE!!!! who called it? MEEEEE!!! yeah...can you tell i'm hyper? lol.

HYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! ha...ha...haaaa........

~~Angel [hyper, mad, idk what else...] *sigh*

I'm swearing right now

I just don't want to type it allllll out.
I DO believe you, Robby. I went back to what I did before and I didn't want to but I did it! All because of you. Because I. Love. You.
Just stay with Cayla. Okay? She makes you happy. Probably happier than I made you. So, be happy with HER not ME. I'll move on. I'll try to anyway. Try my hardest.
That video made you cry? Well, I've been crying sice the other day! When I found out that you and Cayla were together. I literally felt my heart being ripped out of me and being torn into little tiny pieces.
But I will heal - mostly.
And if you love me, why are you dating her? And if she loves you and you love her back, then why do you love me? Just make a decision, because I will not be able to move on unless you do.
That's all the emo depression I'm allowed today. Soooooooo....
BE HAPPY AND
.:SMILE:.THE WORLD IS ROUND!! =]]]]]]]]]]]]]
~~Angel [NOT emo depressed][Happy and preppy...okay, not preppy, but happy and positive!]<333333

news flash

life sucks.
No I will not wait for you. Read post below for more information.
Have a good life for me cause mine sucks!

~~Angel [still emo depressed]

*SIGH*

Angel is emo depressed and angry at the world.

Last night I thought about doing it again...but I didn't. Because of my Nana. I wouldn't want her to see me the way I am. It hurts ME to see me the way I am. I am soooooooo angry at soooooo many things. Ugh!

Okay, here's what I don't get: Robby said he still loves me. But he likes Cayla and wants to "try to go out with her." But he also said, and I quote, "It'll only last a couple days." SO WHY THE F*CK ARE YOU DATING HER????????!!!!!! wow! People are so dumb! Oh, and last night, he was like, "Will you wait for me?" Ummmm, NO! I mean, sure, if I KNOW things aren't going to work out with them, but I mean, seriously! If she's supposedly liked him for four years, Its obvious their relatoinship won't only last "a few days" it'll last a lot loonger, so no, I won't. But just so you know, I still love him, but I am NOT going to sit around all emo and sh!t waiting for them to break up! NO! I will not allow that! I am going to be positive and happy from tomorrow on. Yes, I said tomorrow. I just want to day to end and never come back. So I am going to be negative today, sorry. but I will be better. I won't try to do anything I swear! So, have a great life with Cayla, Robby!

ILY to mah BFF's!!
~~Angel [emo depressed but working on getting HAPPY! =]]
.:Smile:. The world hasn't been blown up by yours truly...yet.

Why?

why can't I just stand up for myself?! I am such a loser!! AAAHHH! someone shoot me now! okay, never mind, don't.
I am sad.
I think I finally believe Robby and I think I should give him a second chance...But he's gonna go out with Caila. I tried to worn him that she's a total $lut but he doen't care because she's "liked him for 4 years" but she goes out with one guy for a day, breaks up w/ them, goes out w/ someone 4 another day, breaks up, goes out with the first one for two hours, breaks up...ya get it? She's one of THOSE girls. So if he goes out with her, I will be full on depressed! (Which sucks, it's happened before.)
*sigh* maybe I'll write a poem...

UNTITLED FOR NOW
I’ve done some things
That I’m not proud of.
I’ve done some things
I wish they were a dream.
The world is wrong,
It’s all, all WRONG!!
I want to turn it around
Till it starts all over again.
So many things,
I wish could change.
I’ve done some stupid things.
You would know this,
But I’m sorry,
And I want to try again.
So help me through
The hardest times,
But for now,
Just be my friend.
And later on,
My guardian.
To help me through
The good and bad.
I love you so
And miss you more
Thinking of us makes me cry.
So please come back
You’ve been gone too long
And don’t think about HER!
She is nothing but
A distraction
A liar
A fake!
She doen’t love you
You don’t know she does.
But you know that I DO.
So please some back to me
And do not stray to her.
So think about what I have said
And don’t believe what
People say to you; It’s not true!
I honestly miss you, lots and lots.
Please don’t hate me anymore.
I am begging you
To not hate me.
Please come back.

There. Not that depressing. Actually, it's just...my feelings. So HA! Not emo! *evil laughter*sigh* yeah...I'm done being a spaz. Not really. I'm always a spaz. But like, no one says that anymore. Cept me! Cuz I'm WEIRD!!! Whooooooooooo! *pokes anyone near by or reading this* hehe bored. BYE!!!

~~Angel

I regret to say this...

Please, don't get mad at me!!! I'm going to tell all of you something I truly regret. I did it again last night. I cut. And it WASN'T because of you all know who! It was because of all the stupid things I've done. Here's the 5 most stupidest things I've ever done in no particular order (Except for the first one):
1. Let my parents yell at my brother the way they do and treat him like sh!t!!!! They treat him like he should know what he's doing is wrong when he doesn't know its wrong.
2. Ask Nate out
3. Didn't stand up for myself against him.
4. Break up with Robby and let this mess happen.
5. For cutting the first time and again last night.

I'm sorry to all my friends who had to read that but I HAD to get it out!!! I'm soooooooo soooooooo sorry but I won't do it again I promise!!!!!!

I cried last night after I cut though. I was thinking about my Nana and how she's in Heaven looking down at me and seeing me cutting myself and hurting myself. I feel so horrible and I wish I hadn't done it. So I started crying after I did it because I thought of her looking down at me hurting inside and out. I'm sorry Nana, I wish I could take it back, but i knopw I can't. I love you and miss you.
I MISS YOU, ANNE LOUISE MOOERS: MARCH 3RD, 2008. YOUR MEMORY LIVES WITH ME!!!!!

Try to .:Smile:. The world is still round and it hasn't exploded yet.

~~Angel [Strangly happy after what happened to me last night/kinda depressed]

i don't care

ya know what? I don't care if I'm "invisible" to Nate anymore. I asked him out, he was being and @$$ about it. (Yeah, I don't like to swear much) But anyway, he's so mean. I'll let you know if I flip out at him.
He's avoiding me when he could've just said No. Instead he humiliated me and made fun of me. Here's what I'm gonna tell him:
Thanks for avoiding me all day so far. You know, you could've just said no instead of humiliating me. Besides, I wouldn't want to go out with a jerk (or @$$ idk yet) like you.
So, that being done and over with, I've been thinking...not too hard though. Well, umm...maybe I shoudn't say that now. Yeah...Well,

~~Angel [wants to kill Nate/angry]

poem by ari

I HAD to post this, Ari!!! Just HAD to!!!!!!

God, It Hurts


I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I Know'
I said 'God I cry alot'
And God said 'That's why I gave you tears'
I said 'God I get so depressed'
And God said 'That why I gave you sunshine'
I said god I feel Alone'
And god said 'That's why I gave you loved ones'
I said 'god my loved one is dead'
And God said'I watched mine nailed to the cross'
I said God 'Where are they? '
And God said 'Mine is on my right and yours is in the light.
I said 'God it hurts'
And God said 'I know'

By ARI!!
OMG Ari, you rock!!
~~Angel

Poem time!

There's two:

Invivsible
I sit here and wonder
Do you even know me
Or if I even exsist?
I wanted to tell you

That I see the way you walk
Down the hall with your friends
And I saw the way you looked
And smiled at her.
(Tag line) But will you ever see me?

(chrous)
Or am I just another girl
Who sits in class so quietly?
Will you ever see that you're the one I see?
Or am I just
Invivisble?

I don't know if you can choose
Who you want to see
Or who you want to ignore.
Could you at least tell me
If I am visible to you?

(Chorus)

You don't even know
That you're the one I think about
Day and night.
It might seem a little strange
That I even know your name
When you don't even know me.

As I'm walking down the hall
And I happen to look up
And I see your face through the crowd.

(Tag line)

(chorus)

You'll never see me.
I wish that you could hear me!
Or at least knew I exsist!
But maybe that's too much to ask.

So maybe I should stay
Invisible...

As I watch you walk down the hall
And I see you with that girl
I'll just walk by without a glance
From you.

~~Angel

Alone (In This Strange Hell)

I am so alone!
Someone save me!
I have no one!
No one loves me!
My parents argue!
Do they even care?
My brother's only two!
they act as if he knows
What he does is wrong!
But he doesn't!
And my parents yell!
They yell and scream
At the poor little boy!
Why must they do it?
Why not me instead?
I can handle it all
But my baby brother can't!
Why won't they stop?
It's torturing me!
Please stop! Please!
Don't you understand?
You make me feel
Alone.
Alone beyond belief.
You'd NEVER get it.
You CAN'T help me.
So stop what you're doing. Now!
You make me so ALONE!!!

~~Angel

~~Angel [is depressed] =[[[[

KAILA I REALLY HATE YOU

I wish I didn't give you that to give to Sk8er Boy. Now...idk but...I regret it. I should have just asked him out. So, I hate me too.
On the other hand...I saw Horton Hears a Who! on Saturday!! It was uber-cyute! LOL. I went with Max, Nudge, Des, Chappy, and Jason...I think I got em all. OOHH then we went to Dairy Queen and got ICE CREAM!! Yumm! =] I was happy.
Yesterday was Easter! Candyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! =]]]]]]]]]] LOL. <333333333 Life....cept what Kaila did. =[. oh well I over it.
.:Smile:.The world is round! =]]]]]]]]

~~Angel

HYYYYYYYYYPPPPPEEEEEERRRRRR

I AM SO (bad word) HYPER!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOO (not yelling)!!!!!!
omg ari knows who sk8er boy is! whaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! it sucks! =[ well anyways ummmmm life is good cept erika and kaila are like keeping me out of "the looop" they are going to do something but idk what it is and they won't let me know!!!!! (i hate you all) they have the same minds as nudge...sadness
DOODE I GOT MR4!!! I borrowed it from Gabby!!! Ilylas!!!!

~~Angel <3 Sk8er Boy
(Hyper)

Doode, P.S. High school counsiler came today. I don't wanna go to High school!!!!! *cries spastcally*screams* YOU CAN'T MAKE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEH!!!!!!! (awww sk8er boy just left the room...don't ask he was just here) Anyway, THIS IS SO CONFUSING I DON'T WANNA PICK MY CLASSES THESE SILLY CREDITS ARE SO CONFUSING I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!! Sorry. All done ranting.

~~Angel (again) <3 Sk8er Boy

Doctor's office

Suckish. I dislike doctors greatly. They are evil. She scratched my arm! Well she had to. With a little slide thinger for a microscope...yeah don't ask. Long story.
ANYAYZ...Sk8er Boy was absent again. =[[[ Maybe he's sick...I mean...I DON'T CARE!!! I don't even like him anymore!! *sigh*
Iggy and I talked last night...There's some confuzzlation going on. With me anyways. So yep. Blahhhhh!!
La di da. do de dah. me mi mo. fe fi foe. lmao.
FUNNY!!! AND RANDOM!!!
MOOOOOOOO!!!
QWACK!!!!!
OMG! GUESS WHAT???!!!!?!? The world is round. So smiiiiii-yellllllllllll!!!! =]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] Yeah me happyful!

~~Angel

Edited

Two posts ago were edited. New York is no more. He is now...Sk8er Boy because there are so many of them and no one know exactly who it is!! mwahahahahahahahaha!!! *evil* I am EVIIIIIIIL ANGEL!!! hehehehehe.
Lol so yupppers yuppers i am bordersers. yeshy yeshy.
OMGOMGOMG!!!
SMILE: THE WORLD IS ROUND!!!(not yelling)
~~Angel
P.S. If something exciting happens I will edit this post.

Capital S-l-u-t's!!!

I hate "it girls" they suck. All they talk about is guys. I think they know I like Sk8er Boy because theyre saying who would go out with him???!?!?
So yeah. And plus theyre like "he likes julia and holly and emili and andrea" and going through naming everyine who he likes. *crushed* maybe I don't like him anymore. I shouldn't. maybe he's gay...=] LOL I hope so so that I can move on. *moves on* jk I wish. I don't really like anyone else though. *sigh* eyyup.

~~Angel

Aiight

Yeah so yeah.
Liz...I love you like a sister, but...DIE!!!! *poke in side* hahahaha jk BORED. I was going to say something important but idk what it was. ummm...yeah.
Doode Sk8er Boy is amazing!! LOL DO NOT ASK!!!! Sk8er Boy isn't here.=[[[[[ oh well i'll live.

BORED BORED BORED =]]]
smile: the world is round!

Oh! I am DONE with pain...if ya know what I mean...=]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] *huuuuuuge smile!!*

~~Angel

yeaaaaaaaaahhh idk what to call this

ummmmm...problem time!! (but who cares about my problems?)
well allllllll weekend I've been HAPPY =]]]!!! But I get to school and its like *whack* DePrEsSiOn =[[[[[!!!! IDK why, but it may have something to do with...well...with people. Guy people. LOL.
I feel bad cause I didn't go to Kaila's party yesterday! =[[[ Depression City over here!!!! (Not fuuuuunn!!!) Sorry Kaila!!
So yeah, random stuff. Sad. Happy. In between. RAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Idk what that was.
Science is evil to me...or maybe that's just the teacher...Nope, it's the subject. The teacher is sooooooo nice!! Well anyayzes, the world goes round and round!!

Lots of loooooooove,
~~Angel

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

HOLY EFFING SHT!!!!!!! THEY'RE GOING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAX AND JASON ARE OMGOMGOMGOMG I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPP *jumps up and down screaming* whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~~Angel

I'm okay, but hyper

okay so I am officially single!! it kinda sucks kinda doesn't at the same time. sooooooooooo
whats new with all my friends? (robby, you are included as my friend, okay?)

To Robby: I do not hate you, just so you know. I just think that what I did was best. We can still be friends and I still trust you with my secrets and what not so please don't tell anyone cuz I still trust you.

~~Angel

Being Random

My life sucks but I'm HYPER!!!! *pokes Erika*
Erika: bitch
Me: :O
Erika: hahah loser
Me: *Grabs bazooka out of thin air...shoots Erika as she turns into a zombie*
Erika: comes back bites brittany
Me: Okay, Erika, prepare to di-*shoots bazooka again but it backfires and I fall over on my butt laughing like a maniac* That was awesome!!!

okay never mind. all done being dumb. guess what?!??!
I'm hyper.
I'm obsessed with Superchic[k].
I love music.
Max, Erika, Nudge, and Des are my best friends so Whooooooooooo!!!!
The world is round.

I want to shoot Emili Tardiff with a bazooka. =]]]]]]
I hate people who thinks everyone likes them.
Here's a list of these people:
Emili Tardiff, Andrea Haley, Christine Montgomery, Katelynn Leavitt, and a bunch of people in other clans, and a few dudes too I just can't think of any right now though. LOL I luvers yoo all friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~~Angel

Love, Life, and Drama

Do you see why I called my blog this? My life is full of drama!!

Well, on a normal, happy, non-depressing note: There's a new student in my clan! He's REALLY nice...so far. His name's Wei and he's in my social studies class. He drew on my shoe and wrote: I stepped in poop.
I did NOT step in poop, just so everyone knows!!!!!

Erika likes my body(When it's not Thursday!!!)!! And now she's flinging things at me!! LOL. *pokes Erika in the forehead* I'm happy. I should write a happy poem. I am getting better and better everyday. I am going to WIN this battle!!!!!!! I promise you. I promise everyone, I will win this battle.
Random poem time!!

Fight for What I Love

I am going to fight
I am going to win.
With you by my side
And God guiding my way
I know this will end very soon.
I haven't been able to cry
But maybe that's for the better.
I know that I love you
And that my fiends love me back.
This will be hard,
This will be scary,
But it's a chance I'm willing to take.
I will try and try
For what is right
And I will fight for what I love.

~~Angel

oh kay

umm...that was never meant to happen.
i never knew he had a google account. my life just ended.
wow.

well okay...
ur right. it IS my choice. and idk what joey was saying. i'm not dealing with any of my problems. i haven't even faced the fact that i cut!! i know i do it-i'm consious of it-but i haven't realized what i'm doing!!!!!! i can't face it! its too hard.
Robby, You have no fricking clue what i'm going through! If you were going through this, you would make the same choice!!!!!!!!! so...w/e.



~~Angel (Depressed)

You know what I noticed?

I hate people. Well, "popular" people. The ones who dress in American Eagle and wear expensive shoes? All they talk about is: "My hair's a mess!" "Can I go get my iPod? Oh my God I don't care!" "I love your myspace song!"
It is so annoying!! I hate people like that! And other people who just walk around going: "Oh, I'm so cool!" *cough cough* Katie!! lol well anyways,
After Iggy gets back we will be Iggel no more. Why? Because I think he is the reason why I am cutting still. I haven't cut since he's been absent from school. What do you people think? BEST FRIEND ALERT!!!
Luvers you all,

~~Angel

HERO

I am obsessed with Hero by Superchic[k]!!!!! AAAHHH!!! I love them!!!
You need that boy like a bowling ball dropped on ur head which means not at all!!!!!!
So that means something to me. bnoth the songs do. Well, I want to be a hero and make the right choice!!! Whoooo!
I wasn't stupid last night! Yay, me! Love you friends,

~~Angel

well thats over

As in my happy streak. It ended yesterday, and I did the stupid again. Its because me and my mom went to my great-grandfather's house to visit. he wanted all my nana's stuff GONE so we were told to take what we wanted. so i ended up w/ a doll, 2 TY's and a crystal rose. I feel so BAD but if its what was wanted...

plus on friday i went to max's...but something that happened that i wish never did.

New band: Superchic[k]!!!

~~Angel

Whoo *sarcasm*

eh I hate sadness. I am saddened. I will try to be happy but the sadness is over-whelming. I think I'm gonna call my mommy when i get to Max's later. I hope she handled this well. I don't think I can even handle knowing the funeral was today!! AAHH!! *cries* whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! =[[[[[[[ so like yeah its hard for me.
*cries more* cry cry cry!! ehhhhhhhhh. sickish feelings.
Random Poem:

The sadness falls over me
Like darkness falls over day.
I can't bear this pain;
It's hurting me.
And then I fall down
With the pain in my heart.
It attacks me fast
Then slowly leaves.
But the scar it left will always be there.

~~Angel

Dear Nana,

Today, at 1:00 is my great-grandmother's funeral. I was going to go, but I decided not to. I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it, so I'm going to Janae's instead. I have no idea what will be said there, but I am going to e-pray.
*bows head*
Dear God,
Please look after my great-grandmother Anne Louise Mooers for me. She was a nice person and didn't deserve to go. So, please, God, tell her I love her and I'm sorry I didn't get to say good-bye. I love you, Nana, and have a good after-life. We all miss you and love you still. God bless you,
Amen

So there it was.

~~Angel

Okay, prepared to be amazed!

I didn't do anything stupid last night!! Yay, me!! I did write a poem last night though...actually a song. *curtains open and I walk on stage* *the spotlight turns on* Umm, you mind turning that down a tad?...Thanks! *I grab the mic and it sqeaks (oops!)* Ahem!

Stay Strong and Hold On
I never thought this day would come
I never thought I'd say good-bye
One last time.
And I hope you know
That I dind't mean to hurt you
By not saying that I love you.
But you know I do.
I just want you to know that

(Chorus)
I will saty strong
And I will hold on
Just for you.
I promise I won't cry
When I'm saying my good-bye's.
I'll just stay strong
And I'll hold on!

Justs so you know
No one wanted you to go.
So we'll all try to be strong.
And we'll try to live our lives.
Eventually we will move on
But you'll always be in our hearts.

(Chorus)

I will stay strong
Oh---Oh
I will hold on
Oh---Oh
I will stay strong!
And I will hold on!

*Crowd cheers estacically*
Thank you, thank you!

Heads up for another post later!!

~~Angel

My favorite

Okay the last post - scratch it. Minus the VISIT THESE PEEPS part.
I figured out how to make another blog!! Yay!! I made it in dedication to Good Charlotte. I copied Des but w/ a different band. =] *sheepish grin* no hurt me?
Here is url
http://gcmusic5maddens.blogspot.com/

~~Angel

How do you...

Make another blog? Like on the same account as this one, but like w/ a different subject or whatever??? eeeh.

cool blogs:
Nudge: http://theflocknessmonster.blogspot.com
Max: http://bemsdrama.blogspot.com
Des: http://nirvanamama.blogspot.com and http://livinthedeslife.blogspot.com
Ari: http://ariandtheflock.blogspot.com
Erika: http://daiglebagel.blogspot.com

yupp so talk to these peeps kay?

~~Angel

DESIRAY

I know that pain is not the answer. If you read the comment I left you, then, I said that I want to stop. I just need you to help me out by not saying things that will hurt me more. okay? I will stop. NOW. Right here, right now. IDC how hard it is to stop, I will refrain from hurting. I'll hurt inside, but I will NEVER hurt myself again.
I luvv you like a sister and I never wanted to hurt you.
P.S. Breanne asked about you last night. Yeah, she called.

~~Angel

no matter what...

max, nudge, and des:
I'm sorry for all the troub;e I've caused but I wish I could take it back. Please forgive me and just help me through my hard times. Just remember, no matter what,

Blinkyou.com

In loving memory...

Tombstone Generator

Help Me!

I cut again.
Now I wish I could bleed. Why? I'm bleeding inside.I'm still upset I've been cutting so I do it again. That's another reason why I want to bleed.
The, 2 nights ago, my great grandmother died. I never really got to say god-bye, so I did it again.
And to top it all off, I feel like my friends don't care!! Nudge was listening until Max walked up and then it's like, "Angel who?" So idk wtf is up with that.
I haven't cried yet. Is that normal?
~~Angel

okay

okay ignore the last post.

I. Need. Help. Now.
I keep cutting and I REALLY want to stop. Its like ADDICTING. So now, evvery time I get upset about something, that's what I do. It makes me sad that I do that. So I do it again. Its like HORRIBLE!!!! HELP ME NOW OR IDK WHAT I'LL DO!!!!
Friends: PLEASE??!

science

i don't care mucho 4 science.
i must talk to ppl later...